I’m healing well. Got a shower – Yippee! That made me feel so much better. On Monday, I get the stitches out. I’m taking it easy around the house. Can’t lift more than five pounds, and I get tired easy. But no big pain problems, so that’s good!
What’s surprising is what I’m feeling. This surgery brought back a lot of the feelings from when I first had breast surgery – my double mastectomy in 2003. So much of our self-worth, our womanhood, is tied to our breasts. I’ve been feeling bluer than I thought I would. Not so much “Wow – I made it this long”, but this experience opened up the wounds of the impact that breast cancer has had on me as a woman. Will the implants make me look and feel better about myself? Here I am hoping that the implants make me feel more like a “normal” woman, even though they are fake and don’t have feeling. They look a whole lot better, and I’m happy for the outcome. But overall, surprised that I’m feeling somewhat blue rather than joyous. I guess that’s part of the breast cancer journey. You’re a cancer survivor for the rest of your life.Warmly,